A song for the King.


                      I always wanted to compose, to write songs..to be able to make music with my heart, mind, voice and spirit. So i have started to pray for this amazing gift of prophetic worship, which for me is even better. You know why? Because in those moments, you are totally led by the Spirit and you are pouring out His words given to you. Is that very special moment when it's all about Him, when everything you think and say flows straight from His heart and it goes back to Him, when you are so united with Him that you get lost in His heart. Every gift we receive, is not for us to boast or even think that we are good enough to earn them but is to honor the One who has them all, so we are tasting a glimpse of His heavenly Presence through these amazing gifts. Is just like when you go to visit a king, you are given certain clothes and it is told to you which words to use and how to behave in order to be able to see the king, to enjoy his presence and to say what you have to say.

                      We are given clothes and clean hearts and free spirits to be able to enter the throne hall, where if you do not wear the proper clothes you are not able to stand, you are not able to see the glory of the One who sits on the throne.

                     This week i was reading David's Song (2Samuel 22), Hannah's Song(1Samuel 2.), Mary's Song (Luke 21.46-56) and Zechariah's Song (Luke 1.67-79) and was wondering...hmm...how interesting. The moment you meet with God face to face, spirit to spirit, heart to heart, you start proclaiming truths about God that are opening up in front of your eyes right there and then. Things and words and views that only meeting His glory could reflect His beautiness within our heart.
                      Why did they made a song? It must have been so touching that  moment that caused them to bring out all this treasures, hidden down there somewhere in their spirits but faced with the splendor of a God like ours, these beautiful words just exploded in their hearts. It wasn't hard at all i believe.

I want more of that. I want more of that meeting with that God that takes your breath away, just because He is there and He reflects in you His glory, which is making you look white as the snow. Which brings out this original design for which we were meant to be and twords which we are trying to go back to.

                        I want to be able to bring every morning the song of my entire life to the King who is worthy to receive the most wonderful and beautiful and awesome things that i could ever experience and get out from this soul-mine. And yeah, just like someone said "Today i will breath deep and be thankful" and i would continue : "..and let Him lead me to the hidden treasures of His splendor ''.

                                       -SheisKimthegirlwiththedeepbrowneyes-

On my way to the Prayer House 2 days ago, i stopped to talk a bit with one of the rromi lady. She started to pour out her heart to me, telling that she has to go home to her sick kids and i stood and listened and after encouraging her i was going to continue my path. But after we said good bye and i walked away a few steps from her, she looked at me and after a break, with tears is her eyes, she said ''i am going to miss you so much and i love you!'' That just broke my heart so, i went back to her and huged her for some moments and she cried in my arms. It was such a deep moment. Felt like all her sufferings were transfered to me. It really hurt.

The next moment, a girl walks down to us, asking if everyting is ok. And literally stopped and checked out. I told her that it's ok she is just sad of all her problems and that she has to go home. So, this girl asked me if she can sit there with us for a while. The next moment i was sitting with her there and after a while she asked if i have any plans? i said not really. So we went and had some coffee and later dinner together. She started to say that is so strange that she stopped, she couldn't tell why she did it. It was like something made her stop, something that she would never do. It was strange.
But i knew why she stopped. I knew what was that something that made her stopped. I managed to share with her what i am doing and she just looked at me with this deep brown eyes saying that ''you are so different and brave to do this.''

My heart just stopped really for a couple of seconds. I was just amazed of what was just happening. So we spend the whole afternoon together, sharing life and just really talking. I am once again in awe of God, how wonderful He puts things together. How wonderful He leads people to us, to the Light that He has put in us.

The story continues with me and her going so deep in life things. She has no faith, she says.I know this will not stop here. We are going to hang out more together and go deeper. But i see the purpose of her stopp, she is searching, she is longing for something greater. It's the longing He has put in each and one of us, we just have to let it come to the surface.
I am so blessed and honoured to be this small piece of the big puzzel in God's plan. Is such a perfect place to be. And the only one i want to be in.

'' He defended the cause of the poor and needy and so all went well. Is that not what it means to know Me? declares the Lord.''        -Jeremiah 22.16-

I have finally got to understand this verse of the Scripture. Been asking for more of God and His heart and He gave me a long process full of suffering and loss but the most amazing and blessed revelation. This revelation is related to this ministry of the rromi people. As i was doing the same things i knew, He brought the extraordinary in the ordinary. What i mean by that is that i have started to get this overflowing heart, overflowed with His passion and compassion and uncoditional love.

This Easter, even though wasn't at all what i would expect, traditional speaking, it was the most significant ever. I have felt the effects of what Jesus did. And that is the unconditional love, til death, that overflows in His heart and the acceptance of everyone, no metter the past, the identity or even the sking colour. I truly understood that it's all about His love and what He has done. I am not..but He IS. He is the God I AM. ''Many times i was wondering why did God presented Himself to Moses the God I AM. That is because i am not, or we are not but He is.''  How wonderful!

We manage to organise this Easter Celebration on Good Friday with the purpose of having an open dinner and of course celebrate what Jesus did. We invited the rromi people as well. Honestly we were not expacting many to come, they were quite sceptical when we told them. So we have cooked only for 40 persons max. Well guess what? They were keep coming and coming and we realised we were arround 60. So, we started to pray that the same God who multiply the bread and fish would multiply this food, couse seriously, there was no way it could be enough for all. And He did. More than that, even leftovers and managed to gave away small packets of food and even they were talking with each other saying that probably God has multiplyed the food because people were eating but the food was not finishing. :)

So, it was a remarcable evening! I am still not over it! i am still in awe of what God has done and how He brought them all there.
Afterwards, i kept having this thought that i should go and spend my Easter sunday with them, there where they ''live'' in the parking places. So i did. And i just have to say, i was more than blessed to just sit down and hear random stories and all kind of discussions and felt like i have become like one of them, no longer ''the romanian'' but ''our girl''. This is just such a joy for my life! i have realised imediatly that the verse above is so true, when i get closer to them, i understand and know God. Of course through Scripture and Prayer you know God as well but identifying yourself with people arround you, becoming part of their eveyday life and being there for them is totally God's heart. So, now i feel like i have gain such a precious knowledge about God. Love into action. That is how His love is, through action.
Standing up for them, fighting for them against all it's so worth it.

Even if most of the things in my life at the moment are not in order or are totally a chaos, this one thing brings life and light into my life! and i intend to grow it! i do want more of God. It's such a blessing and an honour to love people, to develop this love and just to call out the beauty in each person arround you.

So..this is how i have seen a small glimpse of one of my biggest dreams come true..it's so beautiful. I will not give up believing!
''If your dream or vision is big enough that you can make it happen, means it's not big enough.'' I dare to have BiG dreams because i have a BiG GOD! :)

                                                          Out on the street

                               Ingebjorg and i on a Thursday going out with food

                                       Easter Celebration dinner on Good Friday

                              Awake Your soul. Share the Love. Bring the Kingdom.

Present is the time when we can meet God.


This is something God has been speaking to me these days. There was a pastor who came to visit us, he is kind of my mentor, to which i am very grateful for the amazing work God has done through him.
  He said : ''we are human beings of the present time, we cannot literally live in the past nor in the future. Even every dream, idea, thought, are created in our mind in the present time, not in past or future. God is a God of present time, not that He hasn't been God in the past, or that He will not be in the future but the way He chooses to manifest in a real way, is in the present time.''

  Therefore, what i have learnt is that i can't meet with God in the past or future, only in present. Now, when we choose to realise this, is when we really get to meet with God. Disconnecting ourselfs form the past experiences, pain, sufferings, memories that hurt and also from the million of plans for the future, hopes and dreams and wishes and just acknowledge that we are present beings and the most valueble time we have is this very moment, next minute is not ours, the last minute already passed, but this very seconds is ours to take and choose to invest for something worth living for.

  This has made me realised how much i was caught in the past and in the future, forgetting to enjoy this very moment with God. Many times when i was coming before Him, i was having a divided heart, some small parts of my heart was in the past or was in the future thinking oh, my God, how will i be able to work this situation out? now, there is a verse that says '' come to Me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.'' God knows that is hard for us to put behind the worries of the past and future and this is why He is saying this, He is the only One who can take it away and give us instead the peace, His peace that goes beyond all understanding. Only with this peace we can go before Him freely and released of all our worries. Then is when we get all this revelations and amazing experiences with God.
  Now i start to understand why so many times i couldn't felt like i was entering His Presence because i was not letting go of all this that were pulling me back. This is the enemy's weapon, cuz the only power he can have over us is our past, that is why he is using it so much against us, especially after God has forgiven us.

From now on, at least i have this knowledge and i can remember that present is the time i am meeting in a real way with my beautiful Maker.

These past weeks, God brought before my eyes different things that i have forgotten or just neglect because of the rutines i am in. He remembered me how important is to keep contact with people who were, are and will probably be for a while in your life...I have decided since then to take a day of the week just to pray, email, skype and text my friends back home or friends arround me who i don't have the time to check and see how they are.

The importance of carrying about the others is of such value. Now it feels like i understand better why God is saying that the second law is ''to love your neighbor as yourself''. Just like you like to take care of yourself, your needs, you have to care about your neighbor\brother\friend\stranger's needs. When you do this is like you are releasing God's blessing upon that person and involuntary on you.

Carrying for those arround us is more than just fulfilling a law given by God, is touching God's heart...

I travel a lot by bus (haha) and a good habbit i have created is to pray for the people on the bus. I don't know who they are, but i don't even have to when it comes to praying. You can pray for everyone who probably you will never see in your life. It's an oportunity to pray God's blessing over them, so do it. Bring the Kindgom. You never know what might happen. :)

About my friends, i had no idea how much it meant for them that i have just sent a text or email saying: ''hey, today i am praying for you and i want to know how is your life going.''
Some of them said, ''man, Annie, you have no idea what i am going through. I need help'' . Others were struggeling with depression, loneliness, fear, worries, desperation. I was like...whhaaaattt?!! and i can't believe i wasn't there for them. I felt bad for not keeping the contact with them. It was like a cold shower.

Was like God has made His Presence felt right at that moment. When they needed it the most.
God is waiting on us, you know? He will never do it for us or never force us. The free will given to us, He will never take it away.

But are we willing to be there and ready and listen to His thoughts?
I have so much to learn in this. But i am willing to do this. I want it.

And seriously most of them, were is such hard season and really needed help in prayer. I tell you, i was amazed by how much God did through a simple obedience. They have opened up and were able to breath..One friend even said : ''i just need to talk more to you, i really need you!''  and another said : ''everytime after i talk to you, i just want to go home and spend some more time with God''.
This makes me so humble, it's nothing about me that makes them feel or say this, it's all God's amazing power which i am willing  to contain within me in order to be used.
''carry each others burdens''

My idea is : be sensitive to God's sweet though about people arround you and remember your dear ones in prayers and action.

..and remember:
'' Wherever you are, God is.''

I was wondering few days back, talking to someone about what i am doing and how i moved to Norway from Romania, and that person was asking me if it was hard to leave Romania?
I took a deep breath, and said : more than you can think. I had such an amazing life there, involved in so many things and having such good people arround me who helped me grow spiritual so much and yet, God was calling me to Norway.

Norway for me, it was like wilderness...i just couldn't experience God in the same way as i was experiencing Him in Romania and couldn't understand why, at that moment.
Then, after i came finally to Norway, i got in a deep, deeeeeep depression, which of course i would have not called it ''depression'' cuz, i didn't believe that God's children can get in depression, and yet, there i was, in a deep depression. Confused, lost and hopeless. Until, God met me there, in that wilderness and spoke to me. Oh, such glorious moments. I realised, that for me, at that time, God was not the same, as He says He is yesterday, today and tomorrow. It took me a while to realise this.

After that ''while'' felt like my whole world turned upside down. I had to literally take His word and speak it out loud so that i can believe again, ''faith comes by hearing'' , and i am telling you, God's precious and powerful Word, still brings to life. Was like my heart was brought back to life. I started to believe that God is the s.a.m.e. and that wherever i go, i should be able to live with God and carry this faith within me, because God is not limited by circumstances nor situations we are, but He is God at ALL time and in ALL places.

That was the moment when i released God's plans with my life for this timing. Embracing His plans, His thoughts which are always better than mine, made me get where i am today.

An advice : embrace God's will for the time and season you are in, even though you hate it and you want it another way. You will experience God's amazing blessings that are coming along with your surrender.


Just felt that i should share this tonight. Is another side of God's beautiful plan for this season of my life.

Rromi  Ministry  on  the  streets 2013

This ministry, or the first time i have been out again after New Year, found me in such a deep passion...is like i have been regiven , if i can use this word, all this passion and love for these people, my people.

I am so deeply touch by God’s heart and plans for this ministry.

This time i went out, i met new people, and i heard again stories that pierced my heart, just like is piercing God’s heart. I felt it, i felt it so strong, God’s broken heart for them, though like i tell them always, i can’t do more than just to feed them, preach the Gospel and pray for them, which, right now when i am writing, i realise it’s what Jesus was doing and the prophet Isaiah was saying about Him...

Met 3 new ladies which i got so connected with and i am intending to keep the contact with, Ana-Maria, Maria and Irina. I have them in my heart ever since.

Another amazing thing happened is that Viorel and Mirabela, the family i am really investing in, and which are already going to  the romanian church, came back as well and got to share a little. Viorel told me that Mirabela, his wife, decided to come to Jesus...and my heart just exploded with joy inside my chest...and i asked him: „what about you, Viorel?” and he said...’’i guess i am not ready, if i want to do this step, i want it to be real and forever’’. I was suprise of his answer and then, something heavenly happened, as Ingebjorg was sitting next to me praying for the conversation, the Spirit of Mighty God came over me and i started to talk and talk and testify His Grace and amazing deeds and how is all about Him and what He had done and how we can’t\need to do anything, except to repent and receive the freely given gift of forgivness, of grace. I am telling you, such a powerful atmosphere..can’t put it in words, but i realised that it was all God! As i was sharing, i was telling to myself, man, this is sooo God!! It’s He’s amazing words pored out on me because they were so not mine J, got reminded of the vers where it says that „you will be given in that very moment the words you need’’ (paraphrase)

 God is just wonderful. That’s all i can say. I can testify His powerful and great and marvelous deeds. He is so faithful, every single word He said in the Book is coming alive.

I am excited to see what new stories He has prepared for me to share with all you. 

                                                                      28 January, 2013, Stavanger